I wasn't the man I am now back then. In 2005 I was physically an *****, but mentally still a punk kid with a smart mouth and bad attitude. It took the deaths of my mother, step-father and both of my older half-sibs between '05-10 to slap some sense into me. I had to accept that "Oh crap, I'm all alone here now. There is no safety net. If I don't start getting serious about my life, I'm screwed."