I wouldn't exactly say I'm looking for something. I feel more that I'm meant for something ⁢ hasn't presented itself to me. My friends would all say I was meant to be a professional club dj, but I don't think that is the right industry for a former addict. I've (no joke) have had at least 12 near death experiences, the last of which was a bout with cancer that I predicted I'd get when I was 16. If I still had the picture of my last car accident , nobody would of thought I'd still be alive. When I woke up in the car, blood pouring down my face, & the car filling up with gas & smoke, I'd had made my peace with *** accepting my fate, but yet again I walked away from it. I know I'm rambling at this point, but I just hope/pray that whatever reason I've been spared so many times is for some greater purpose. And I'll be ****** if it passed me by without me realizing it. Anyone else in this same (very lonely) boat?